I read a blog yesterday that was incredibly eye opening.
I was immediately drawn in by her pure honesty and openness.
She was brave and courageous for sharing her struggle.
And in all honesty, I really related.
We had the same dream of becoming a teacher.
We had many classes together.
But never actually spoke to one another.
Somehow, in this crazy blog world, one blog led to another, and I eventually stumbled upon Kerri's.
I realized I knew her from college, and again realized that I loved reading what she had to say in her "corner" of the blog world, as Kerri says.
Kerri took an unknown break from the blog world for a little bit.
For unknown reasons to her readers.
Truly, I figured she was really busy with school.
(I know I'm about dying for Thanksgiving Break and it's not even October.)
So as I read through her post yesterday, I thought a lot to myself and a sense of surprise overtook.
Her reasons for taking a break were not what I expected.
She openly shared her feelings about not feeling good enough.
And since I entered the blog world, I can honestly say I've had the same feelings.
Looking at all the trendy outfits. Buying expensive bags and shoes.
Having babies. Getting married. Buying houses.
And yes, I'm about to say this...
Reading about girl's amazing relationship with God that seems to never fail them.
Reading those things makes me feel inadequate at times.
Yeah, I know I have nice things.
I know I'm very blessed.
But sometimes, it doesn't feel good enough.
Jealousy? Maybe sometimes.
Insecurities? You bet.
Of course, God plays a huge part in my life.
But sometimes their relationship seems much more powerful than mine.
Personal issues that I need to work on, obviously.
Kerri said all the same things that I've already felt.
But the difference between Kerri and I, was that Kerri was brave enough to admit it.
It took Kerri's post to push me to share my struggles with my readers.
(Even if I only have a handful of followers.)
So with that being said, I vow to be more open and honest regarding my struggles in life.
I don't ever want to come across as one of those girls who has everything, and nothing goes wrong. Because that's unrealistic.
My goal is to be relatable, like Kerri was for me.
Those are the blogs that I find the most interest in.
Not the perfect lives, perfect outfits, perfect everything blogs.
Because I'm not perfect.
I owe a HUGE thank you to Kerri.
Thank you for being brave, honest and relatable.
You were very inspirational.
I can only hope I can be the same for somebody else.